AMOROUS MUSINGS

This one is a tough one to answer without sounding like some form of idiot or speaking in a tone too close to that of a graduation speech, but I will do what I can. 

Let me start by saying I am someone who prides herself on her great sense of direction. From about the time I was 5 years old I could always retrace my steps and find my way home, I could help navigate my father on roadways back to where we needed to go, and when I got older and drove myself, I have prided myself on rarely losing my way. 

A psych professor who is the father of a good friend once administered a test to me on visualisations basically looking at a series of birds eye view images and then matching them to images from street level. I cannot remember what the outcome of his study was or the application of the test, but I do remember that I nailed it. Haha. 

I think the same thing applies to my life, I have always had a map of my life in my mind and followed it. I set destinations in my mind and so far have done a decent job in making it to each (although not always in 100% condition and often realising that once I got there, it wasn’t actually where I wanted to be after all). 

So with that opener, I will say that my greatest fear is probably “missing my exit” or “running out of gas”.

Leaving all comparisons to driving alone for a moment, this really translates to missing a great opportunity in my life because I was too focused on my destination and unwilling to admit I needed to shift things or, alternatively, at some point losing the energy to commit myself to my life anymore. 

I don’t think this is so dissimilar to what other people fear, I fear losing my way and I fear giving up.